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| Hey peeps!!! It's been awhile since I've been on here!! Ok, so here's what's been going on. I just found out why the last guy left me. He told me he didn't see it going anywhere and shit and that I'm just a nice guy to talk to. What the hell, man?!? Well, yeah that's good and all, but I thought we were suppost to be "serious"! Whatev. Anyways, there was another guy that came up to me after the last right, like RIGHT AFTER!! I feel like an idiot for this but this guy is like wow! Anything you can dream or think of, yeah that's him. He treats me like someone you should love and like my lil sis said "You guys act like the whole world stops when you guys are around each other or talking on the phone!" Well, I can't ask for anyone better. Now, my lil sis and I are fighting. I can't stand it because she has never had a job. Expecially a 3rd shift that kicks your ass and having your work schedule scattered after that. What the FUCK!? Enough about my lil sis because I can't talk anymore about it. I miss her tho. Then, work keeps cutting my hours and I feel like a lil bitch for them. So, ok, the bad parts over, now the good news. I'm going to college  YAY! Just for that I'm getting a lab top HEHE!! YES! Then, I'm getting $150 back. Anyways, that's it. Peace N' Luv for now all!!! | | |
| Well, ok, here goes. I dunno where to start. Well, I met a guy at the bar and thought he was cool and cute. He came up and talk to me and got my number...after he build some courage to by drinking another beer. He called me that morning wanting to hang out at like 5 am. Then, he was worried he scared me away like he was afraid to loose me! Then we were tight for two and a half weeks, then he just out of the blue dumps me. Hurt me really man like he's the second guy that made me cry. I get a call from him saying, he didn't mean that he doesn't want to see me again and that he wants me in his life, even if we are friends and he "cares" about me. So we were cool and now I dunno. This morning like actually about half hour ago, he decides to wake me up saying "Hey, I'm going over to my friends house." Sorry it's edited to keep names off. Well, I started asking whats up and he's like, "Well, I'm moving back in with her," and I was like what? He's like "Oh, I've been thinking about and now it's just an spur of the moment thing!" I was like whateve! He starts saying I know it's crazy, and that he's crazy! I just started freaking out and he goes "You can stay here and sleep," and I'm going, "I can't now and too shocked and confused!" Come to find out he hasn't slept all night so basically our talk last night didn't help him and he laid in bed with me for a little while before saying "Oh, I can't sleep!" I'm like whateve thinking nothing of it when I should of. Now I think he's pissed at me or something because I feel lied to and neglected. I'm so confused right now. So now what? Oh and he's also argueing with my baby sister. I told him too I'm sorry, but if you and my baby sister are going to fight, I'm not talking to both of you. Well, I prolly wouldn't talk to my baby sister for awhile, but I can't have a man that can't get along with my baby sister. I mean that's how tight we are. I'm with her 24/7! Well, I think I wrote enough, but I'm still stressin. I'm so pissed. Well, Peace N' Luv all!!!  | | |
| Well, sorry about the long time no entry thing. Well, a lil update, fighting with my roommate, getting kicked out, trying to get my own place, family problems, cousin running away, my uncle died, dealing with ex, etc. Yeah, I'm trying to keep it cool and helping people out a lot lately too. A couple good things...FRIENDS....found a really awsome guy, but dunno what's gonna happen with that. They live in another state, but I like him A LOT. We'll see. Well, don't be afraid to hit me up peeps, 269-788-2941. CALL ME!!! I'm out! Peace N' Luv PEEPS!!! | | |
| Hey all! Well, I feel better now. Th!ngs are look!ng better then what they have been. My roommate and I had "the talk" and we're actually gett!ng along better. I just have to buckle down more, but I asked h!m for a couple more weeks of len!uncy since I have 8 more days of school left. YIPPIE!!! I've basically been work!ng, go!ng to school, try!ng to graduate, and get my grades back up. I found some gl!ches that the teachers have done !n my grades, for example sk!p!ng over my ass!gnments when they're putt!ng them !nto the books. I'm also go!ng to wr!te a poem and a note to my cho!r teacher because she has been so k!nd and such an awsome teacher to learn from. She !s one of my inspiration to cont!nue !n school !nstead of dropp!ng out!!!! Well, I guess I best go now. Yeah, it's short. Peace N' Luv!!! | | |
| My Luv goes out to all who have known Lexi!!! My heart is with you all and Lexi's!!!
Wow, what a day. I'm seriously ready to die. This day has been one of the worse. I started off with fucking my debate up, but I wasn't going to let anybody know that. Instead my partner that I was debating against decides to start her speach out that I did it wrong and what the topic was. HOW EMBERRASSING!!! Then during 7th hour I look at my account on the internet and I'm fucking over $200 in the whole and I can't pay it off for another 2 or 3 weeks!!! Then right after that, I found out I lost another friend! :'( I wasn't real good friends with them, but, wow, I am devistated. I can't believe this. I lost so much in the last couple of weeks, that I feel the pain pushing down on my chest again. Wow, I thought I could escape this, but it's back. I devinatly have to pull off a fake smile tonite for the concert and put on a huge act to pretend I'm all right, but I'm not. It's gonna be real hard to hide it. Expecially from Ms. Adams, but I don't think she is going to notice since, she has to organize this concert. I can hardly breath right now and I want to cry. My body is telling me no and I'm shaking really bad, I can feel it, but I'm still holding that in. I don't know about anything anymore. It's gonna be hard to pull myself out of this. Expecially when my roommate quit giving me money and offering things. He's being soooo fucking emotionless with me. I can't STAND IT!! I just want to tell him I FUCKING HATE HIM!!! But I can't. I really do. He closed everything to me. I closed the giving, the advice, EVERYTHING!!! I really need some support right now to be honest! I mean it. I'm not going to ask anyone, but I will ask in here and in my myspace. Please I need support from you guys!!! I want my Saturday to be EXTREAMLY AWSOME, but I can't because I can't take my b/f out to eat and I don't know if I can get gas money to take me and my b/f to prom. I really want it to be good, and I hope it is. Even if my roommate is going to listen to me say I'm over $200 in the the hole. I just wish he could help me out. I'm soooo torn up right now. I should go though, I spoke too much!!! Peace N' Luv!! My Luv goes out to all the peeps that have known Lexi!! | | |
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